I need to follow more Jap-related blogs~

Ugh. This blog is totally abandoned. OMG

But I don’t want to delete it just yet.

Why am I even thinking of deleting it. I might just leave it here to rot.

But. Who knows. Maybe I’ll come back in here some time. And make this alive again. Though no one cares. I don’t really want anybody to care actually. ‘Cos this is like my personal diary. In a semi-public place. (‘cos you know, nobody actually knows my blog tho. Only a few. lol)

You can visit my TVXQ blog though, if you want. And talk to me.

Lol no. You wouldn’t like what you’ll see in there. Too much pronz. HAHAHAHA JUST KIDDING OK.

I just opened this to check out something. Then turned out I clicked the text post button. And here I am. Psssh.

Anygays. I don’t know if I’m excited with school or whut. Once classes resumed, I probably won’t be able to have a nice spazzing time on Tumblr like I used to. 

I’m having emotional feels right now. I don’t want to sleep yet, as always.

Ok, so, I’ll check that thing out now that I’m supposed to check.

~*NAYYT BITCHEZ*~

kpopsecrets:

My family hates Kpop. They always go around saying, “What kind of shit is this? It’s all auto-tuned and artificial. What kind of f*ckery is this? There’s nothing to like about this homosexual faggots.”

They’re literally shoving it in my face.

I always keep my emotions to myself. I’ve got no ally or comrade or smth of that kind. I can’t open up to anybody and I hate it.

They don’t even put some effort in finding out the things in Kpop that makes it so special.

They only see the bad things. (Like GD’s scandal. I won’t name it.)

When I try to open up to them they’d only say, “It’s just a stupid phase of teenage life. You’d get over it.”

I want to tell them that Kpop is my motivation, my happiness, my inspiration. Yet, they won’t listen. 

I feel like some sort of an outcast in my OWN family.

ps. Sorry for the bad english. It ain’t my native tongue.

S!B I have a friend who follows me that is very close with my parents. I also have some relatives who follows me.

S!B I’m a coward.

At first I was nervous to watch. Maybe because it will not satisfy me? Or I’ll get disappointed? But who cares. This is Junsu. The Junsu that I love. I don’t even freaking care about those gay comments. I mean, I know nothing’s impossible but he doesn’t have the time to be gay tho. I just can’t explain it. Ughh But, doesn’t mean I like him that much, I have to like all of his works, too. (But what the hell, I’m buying the album no matter whuut lol) I shall wait for the full MV though. I was just surprised to hear his voice here. I like it more when he’s singing ballads. 

Now, I’m replaying it for the third time. 

Also, I wonder how he’ll pronounce the title. Loool. =))) OMG, after watching it again, I realized that the last word he said is Tarantallegra =)) Hahaha. OKKK :)))

srs-bznss:

Top 15 pics of Kim Junsu

960831:

it sucks when you’re obsessed with a band and you wanna tell the whole world about it but no one gives a fuck so you try your best to shut up about it.

(Source: rahiodead)

Aigooo~ Kung gusto kong matAwa at matUwa, ito lang ang babalik-balikan ko. (Pati yung video na nahulog si Jaejoong sa stage. Sorry Jae, pero laughtrip talaga yon. Hahahaha!) How can you not laugh but at the same time be attracted to these grown men in fluffy outfits? Lol. 

At…Malapit na akong mag-18. Tanda ko na. Bagay sakin ang kantang ‘to. Charot. I mean, growing up to this stage, it’s quite complicated for me. At least it is.

my dream as a child was to ride a red balloon and fly high into the sky

i forgot about that small dream and lived on until now because i grew up so much

but when i’m miserable i want to run around and play like a child

filling a balloon full of my small dreams

HAAAYY. I feel like summer’s just quickly passing on me. (Pa-english english pa kasi. LOL) I have never been productive since one and a half month ago (well, I learned how to make gifs in ps if that counts) and it really…sucks. I told myself I wanted to at least discover something new, do something interesting and it turned out to be not what I was expecting. I also told myself that I want to do this and that, want to be a part of this and that but I’m not even taking a single step to what I was aiming for. It’s like I’m just waiting for a blessing from the heavens and depend on fate. I was even planning on losing some weight but that didn’t happen either. There’s too much inspiration in me that I have forgotten about my motivation. Is that even possible? Ugh. 

Now, I just want classes to resume as to keep myself busy. Yah, I know, too cliche. When there’s so many things to do, then I’d wish for summer. Why can’t it ever match? 

I guess planning isn’t just for me. I’m ready for surprises. 

Okay so. Just as I have opened my Tumblr account, I figured out that Junsu’s second teaser for his solo album is out. I went to JYJPH’s fan page to find this video. I was screaming silently like crazy, biting on my towel (lol cos I’ve just taken a bath lol) not because I was excited or what… but because. I don’t know. I don’t really know what I’m feeling. Maybe part of it is because I’m nervous for his concept. And seeing people’s reactions when they saw it, I even got more nervous. Actually, I’m writing this down without even watching it yet. Will it have more songs like Intoxication? I don’t even like Intoxication that much. And Junsu that makeup. Is that really what youu wanteeedddd? 

Oh well, Su, kung saan ka masaya, suportahan taka. Hahaha. I’ll just wait for Jaejoong’s work in this album. [I trust Jaejoong’s masterpieces. Lol.] And his own solo album. And Yoochun’s. And HoMin’s Korean comeback. Half of this year will be the Dong Bang year. (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧ 

Edit: I watched the teaser. I cannot unsee it now. I felt like I was in a gay bar. LOL SORRY JUNSU. And one of the blogs I follow is right. It felt like an Adam Lambert video. ANDWAAAEEEE. He’s still rocking that black nail polish. Why does it feel like he brought the musical style of Elizabeth into his own song/album?

Oh well. Hope I enjoy this when they fully release it. And they spelled ‘coming’ wrong.